Tuesday, December 3, 2013

In the air...

So I tried to post last night without success-computers,
have to love them right HAHA! I am now trying again.....
 
This is me sharing a piece of myself with you so those that battle with depression won't feel alone because you certainly are NOT. My writings reflect my emotions, trails, triumphs and so much more. Some are bright and filled with hope, others are raw and can be shocking at times. I share them openly in hopes of helping another. We ALL have soooo many feelings and THEY ALL ARE OK! It's the action we take, our behaviors, that define us....that make a difference.
 
IT'S IN THE AIR
 
"Some days I can feel it, in the air all around me, closing in, trying to penetrate itself through the very pores of my skin. It feels think, suffocating. It is thick. It is suffocating. So I try to do something, anything, to avoid the beginning. The beginning of another battle, another cycle. It's all consuming, insidious, deadly. I run. I hide. I fight! Some days I can manage to maintain some sort of barrage against its evil invasions. Other days I loose. And so does everyone around me. In attempts to keep it from affecting my loved ones, I isolate in my room. Even though I know isolation feeds its insatiable hunger for my happiness, it is my attempt to protect those I love as I am not the same at times like these... Tonight is one of those nights. Sharing, journaling, painting, creating, all help strengthen me and weaken its stronghold. So here I lay writing, sharing. Then I will sleep, praying tomorrow will be a better day. And it WILL BE for my hope lies in my Savior who NEVER FAILS ME, who is strong enough to fight for me when I am weakened by its hideous attacks." I am loved, so very loved. I lean into this love as I post and say goodnight.
Lisa
(AKA: LilFizzie)
 
 
I journal about positive reminders frequently.
Its helps to embed truths into my mind and soul.
 
 
Some close ups....
Then upon looking back through my journals
I am given gifts of truths, positive thoughts
and beautiful reminders of all the beauty
and love that is in my life.


 
Yes, LOVE SWEETLY.......
Lisa